Trivia: I like New Year! I like it more than my birthday (haha!) The thought of something new excites me because I always associate it with something fresh and different.
Last quarter of last year, I was giddy over the coming year. But mind you, this is different than the usual excitement whenever the year is about to end. Hahaha! I was really looking forward to 2014 with all my plans and goals ready in the list. If I were to compare this year to the previous ones, what made me feel too excited was that I’m more definite with my sort-of bucket list. I’ve finally made up my mind as to where it should wander!
After so many attempts, even going back and forth, I finally said yes to working towards my dream (..well, one of my dreams. Haha!) Most know that I’m an artsy-craftsy person by heart. But despite of wanting to explore more of that side of myself, I always had excuses not to. For one reason, I don’t think I’m good at it at all. I mean, who would even make time to check what I create, what I write, or just what I do. (No drama intended, hehe!) Second is I always get the feeling and thoughts of it just being a waste. (Seriously, no drama :P) But I always had the heart to inspire people. I don’t exactly know how but I believe all of us are capable of doing that in many (even small) ways - consciously or unconsciously. I want them (you!!) to keep going with what you know you’re best at and can positively impact others.
So this year, I gave it a push! I’m starting it with myself!
2014 will be my year!
In 2014, I will work my way up to becoming that crafter I’d always wanted to be, knowledgeable and capable to do various handmade goodies. This year will be full of learning and new experiences! It will be a year of exploring more of the Ilyn she has known by heart long ago.
And that was what I told myself as 2014 was approaching fast at the later part of 2013.
You see, my dream of becoming a crafter is quite vague. Yes, I know. Haha! But what I really wanted was to simply do what I know I’m blessed with and to make use of that to impact the lives of others and inspire them. (I think that is actually my dream after all, and being a crafter is just a way to achieve it? Oops, writing out loud!)
I’m not sure when would I be able to say that I’ve already achieved it. But what I’m sure of is that, I’ve started it and I’ll continue to do so! :) After quite some time of doubting and questioning myself with what I can do, I’m now more certain that I’m on the right path with the skills I’m blessed with and the heart I have for these things.
Now, it’s more than half of the year already. In the upcoming posts, I’ll share with you the new learnings and experiences I had for the last 6 months!
Join me as I journey with love to create and inspire!! :)
If I were to put the past 7 years in one word, it’ll be grace.
Looking back, I smile to reminisce where He met me, where He has brought me along the way, and where I am now. I also sigh to remember the (countless) times I’ve failed Him. For times I said I’ll spend time with Him but I didn’t. For the promises I’ve broken and vows I didn’t get to fulfill. For being unfaithful and for days I’ve been cold, quite aloof, and I’ve put Him somewhere else in the priority list than the first.
Remembering what I can (to write this), makes me tear. I tear for joy and gratitude - which I can’t, and I know I will never be able to put into words.
I’m grateful, first, for being pursued tirelessly even before the time I knew He was doing so. Second, for the heartbreaks He had allowed to happen and made me feel. Third, for consistently being faithful despite of me being of little faith even if He has proved me many times that I can rely on Him. Fourth, for keeping His word. Fifth, for sending people in my life to care for me, teach me, laugh and cry with me, and to deal with my flaws, and in all ways, show me who He is and remind me what His grace is like.
The list goes on.